Why am I always so undecided on what to do? Even on simple things!?
I don’t know what is better to do, I want to choose the best thing but I don’t usually know what is better…I just want to be myself and make right choices but I’m unsure at times :/
When I came back from the walk with that boy, my sister bought two bracelets for her friends from one of those men who passed there with their stalls and Giorgio looked at me like an accomplice and taking a hair clips teased the other lifeguard and we all started to laugh, then he took the stall away laughing and I took a photo.
Then I showed it to him and he said: Do you have fb? - we had a lot of fun when he did that again too, another time a big stall with a lot of dresses passed between us and when we saw each other again he had a yellow dress in his hand and we laughed again. He was too funny!
One morning we both were very sleepy, I offered him to lay under my umbrella and he said: Yeah maybe! But who does the lifeguard? I give you my t-shirt so you do that? ;) - and I said: Yeah maybe ;) - of course we were joking. Then I started to play at a kind of ping pong with my dad and accidentally the little ball finished next to Giorgio’s feet while he was walking behind me. He was still and I took the ball. A little embarrassing.
Another day he saw I was alone and approached saying: Can I sit here? - and I said: Yes, of course! - but we both knew that he couldn’t sit, he had to do his job and he said joking: No, they arrest me! Can I just stay under your umbrella or do you beat me? - then he started to laugh and said again: Do you want to beat me? - and I looked at him smiling and thinking about that while he was lighting a cigarette…that was pretty sexy!
In the afternoon I went swimming in the sea and when I came out I took a shower. That was so cold! When I was going to my umbrella I passed next to Giorgio, I still was wet (for the shower, hey) and as my sister said,
he looked at my butt. LOL
And the next day, when I came back from the shower and he was passing
I wringed my hair on his arm..
To be continued…
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The next day he wasn’t on the beach, he had a lifeguard exam, he went on the beach during the afternoon but we weren’t there because the weather was unclear. The next day I told him I missed him and he started to ask when we had to leave.
Then I noticed that he was looking at another girl so I felt a little jealous and I went for a walk along the seashore, my sister and my mom didn’t want me to go alone so they wanted to come with me but I said that there was no need. I was walking pretty fast lost in thoughts, I looked back to see if they were following me but all I could see was that boy who was next to my beach umbrella and for a moment I thought: Is he following me?! No..that’s impossible - and in that moment I thought that no one wanted me but instead..HE WAS REALLY FOLLOWING ME! He stopped me taking my arm and saying: Hey! Now I can finally slow down, I have a scar on my hip! Can we walk together? - I was shocked. I didn’t expect that! He said his name, where he were from, his age and asked me the same. When I said my town he said: Oh well, it’s near to mine! - and he started to talk about his adventures with his motorbike, and the fights he had with people trying to fascinate me but I wasn’t that careful to what he was saying, I just was a lot shocked and he said: Omg, Am I that ugly?! - and I said that I wasn’t shocked for that but because I wasn’t expect that! (Actually he was very attractive) so we walked and talked till the end of the beach and then we returned back. He said I look like a quiet girl and I said he must know me better though because I’m not always like that, indeed when he knew that I play the drums he said: You’re not that quiet then! I play the piano instead! - but yes he said he would like to take me for a ride on his motorbike and I said I would like too, I also said I wanted to ask to Giorgio, the lifeguard, to take me for a ride on his scouter and Mattia (this boy) with a jealous mood said: Noo, that’s not good! That seems to be a bike instead of a scouter! - and I defended Giorgio saying that it’s better than nothing and he fell and hurt his knee and Mattia said: NOOO! HE ALSO FELL FROM THAT!? HOW CAN HE EVER FALL FROM THAT! That’s ridiculous! - and I said that he was tired under a day of work, so he was silent. Then he said: Now your parents see you come back with me, what would they think? - and I said Idk and he said: I think your father would get angry! Now I slow down, you go forward..when you want we could have another good walk ;) - Oh…my…God…I couldn’t believe it! Then I took my time and I told it to my sister and my mom.
To be continued…